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[devilstongue]

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[devilstongue]

[ That was it, wasn't it? Fjord's relationships had been terrible and now he's just added to that. ]

You're not nothing, Fjord. Walking away wasn't easy, it fucking killed me as soon as my brain caught up with me and the panic died away. I'm not... I'm not like those people. I care so deeply about you, and somehow that malfunctioned into some fucked-up way to want to 'spare' you from dealing with me.

[ Turning, he goes to the door - but instead of leaving, he locks it. ]

I'm not leaving again unless you ask me to. I want this, us, but if I've fucked it up completely then I understand.

[halforc]

[ His heart stops tripping when Molly locks the door instead of leaving, which for a hot second looked like it was going to happen all over again. Fjord sits on the edge of his bed, bent over his knees as he stares at his hands. He was falling for him, even if it was just a little, but now it's hard to think around the intense distrust wrapped around his heart like shielding thorns, wary of letting himself be hurt again. ]

I don't know how to tell anymore, that you want me.

[ All the physical fraternising was no guarantee, nor were the pretty words as a result of it. Nor was their time at the beach, or hours spent on the promenade, or that pivotal moment in the kitchen where Molly was so alone and afraid and Fjord couldn't stand to see him like that. He still scoffed and walked out. ]

I ... just don't know, Molly.

[devilstongue]

I don't know how to prove it to you because it just is. I've ruined the happiest days of my life and ruined your trust.

[ He sighs and sinks down on the floor by the door, leaning his head on his knees. ]

I'm a fucking idiot. It doesn't matter how long it takes or if it never us again, I'm already yours. Me running off and wanting nothing more than to come back again proved that to me.

[halforc]

That's not fair. You can't freak out, leave, and then almost kill yourself on drugs just to wake up the next day and mope about being a dick, Molly.

[ Fuck, it's frustrating being the designated adult. ]

Yasha told me to go after you. Maybe I should have, but I refused to. If I can't even trust you to look after yourself, why should I let you have me? I need to rely on you to keep yourself safe and not fly off the handle.

Promise me you'll talk to Yasha or one of the others the next time this happens. I don't want to be responsible for you almost dying in a brothel!

[devilstongue]

I wasn't trying to hurt myself! Everything would have been fine, I paid a man to take me back if it got out of control. Some half-elf. You don't have to look out for me, but I am a fucking mess at times. Something I stupidly tried to protect you from having to deal with.

[ He sighs again. ]

It's not going to be a next time. At least not because of anything between us.

[ Yasha had talked to him all day. He's probably never had such a stern chat with his charm. ]

[halforc]

[ He moves across the room to kneel on a bent leg before Molly, brushing through the flop of hair that always slides between his horns. ]

I know you're a mess, I get why. [ Dying, returning, feeling out of place. ] I want to be the reason you're not. I want to be reason enough.

[devilstongue]

You were. I felt like I was where I belonged, finally. Everything was easier, like I was connecting back not only to you but to everyone. Then it scared me because I eventually would end up hurting you somehow and I knowing you were falling in love with me was terrifying..I'm not the kind of person that should be loved in that way.

[ He closes his eyes but leans in slightly to the touch. It's bittersweet, because he doesn't feel like he deserves it.]

So I did the dumb thing and flounced and managed to hurt you anyway.

[halforc]

You're not the kind of person who deserves it? Don't be stupid. I can't think of one reason you don't deserve to be loved.

[ He gives that hair a little more grip, as if to gently shake some sense into him. ]

You just ... put the falling part on pause.

[devilstongue]

I was dead for a year. I don't even know if this counts as alive after everything I've missed. I can wake up tomorrow and not be me any more. I don't think that's safe to love.

[ He shrugs again, reaching out to cover Fjord's hand with his own. ]

... even so, pause is better than a stop.

[halforc]

Of course you're alive. You're not going to wake up as anyone else, Molly ... [ A small smile wryly curls the corners of his lips. ] They'd have too much to live up to.

[ The smile softens, solemn as he brings Molly's hand to his lips for a chaste kiss. Molly's apologised and admitted his faults, it's only fair that Fjord does the same. ]

I've never done this before. Gone steady, or whatever. You'll have to tell me if I'm too much, or if I need to back off.

[ Wanting to give the person you love your heart is how it's supposed to be, he thinks, but then again who is Fjord to dictate the rules of any romance. He's never had one. ]

[devilstongue]

Hah! Now that is at least true.

[ He smiles a little, even if it is a bit strained. It's hard to be honest, but who else could he be honest with?

At the other words, the smile softens. ]

...me neither, obviously. I'll keep that in mind.

[ Molly squeezes that hand with his own, fingers trailing the lines of the palm again. ]

Do you want me to leave for the night?

[ He'll understand if he should. It might take time. ]

[halforc]

No, stay here.

[ It should be embarrassing how eager he is to have Molly back in his arms, the pain of the last day easing the longer he feels his touch. He's wide-awake after spending most of the afternoon asleep, but if it means he gets to bed down with Molly ... ]

Let's lie down and get some rest. Does that sound okay?

[devilstongue]

I'd like that.

[ He's been sleeping a lot as well, ut he's emotionally exhausted and also starved to touch Fjord again in any way the half-orc will allow. Smiling, Molly starts undressing and getting ready before he slides into the furs and covers with a sigh.

Surrounded by Fjord's scent, he has to force down the sudden rush of emotions again. He nearly ruined this forever, and yet here he is, suddenly feeling like he's in the right place.

Right where he's supposed to be. ]

[halforc]

[ He dumps his clothes in a pile, more concerned with sliding up behind Molly in bed and wrapping an arm around him to gather the tiefling close. Fjord buries his nose in a nape of purple curls and sighs, hot breath fanning out down a tattooed back. This is definitely where both of them ought to be. ]

How are you feeling after your bender, still sick? You didn't eat much downstairs.

[ Oh, he noticed. ]

[devilstongue]

[ He sighs, smiling as he feels that nose at his neck and the arm around him. yeah, this is perfect. A lot better than anything he was worried about.

At the question, Molly's pleased sigh turns into a groan. ]

Ugh. I'm a little queasy, but okay. A side effect of that and heartache is shitty appetite, but I should be fine tomorrow.

[halforc]

Sleep as long as you need.

[ Fjord will be there all night long, however Molly squirms and wherever they end up on the bed by morning. The beacon of warmth at his side always has the halforc snuggling in, a barrier between Molly and the need to get up and face the world.

When he wakes up far too early, Fjord closes his eyes again and lets his weight slide back against Molly in a doze. ]

[devilstongue]

[ Molly sleeps really well with that weight and warmth against his back, proving yet again how good this was for him. (Hopefully Fjord as well.) When the half-orc wakes slightly, he mumbles and wraps his tail around a leg as if to subconsciously tell the other man to stay.

A while later, he wakes up more with a groan, feeling like he has the entire Ustaloch in his bladder. Squirming loose, he sits up and then leans down to give Fjord a peck. ]

Hey. I'm not running off. I'll be right back.

[ Just to be clear. ]

[halforc]

[ He appreciates that, stealing another soft kiss before he lets Molly out of his sleepy clutches. ]

M'kay ...

[ Once he has the bed to himself, he sprawls out on his front and hugs the pillow that smells like his missing bedmate as he drifts into a sunrise-dappled nap. ]

[devilstongue]

[ He crawls out of the bed and heads off, taking a moment to clean up a little as well. Feeling better from his drug haze after some sleep and some water on his face, Molly also grabs a bit of bread from the kitchen, giving Yasha a kiss when he sees her there and then heads back. (She smiles after him, appearing a bit relieved.)

When he sneaks in again, he smiles. Fjord looks really cute, sprawled out like that, and he sneaks over to slip into the bed again. Instead of tweaking nipples this time, he sinks down on Fjord and leans his head on the man's chest as best as he can with his horns in the way. ]

Hello.

[halforc]

[ A smile worms its way onto his features as he feels one far from subtle tiefling crawling under the covers, bringing the scent of bread with him. Fjord slides his hands around Molly's waist and kneads his way to slim hips, only deigning to open his eyes a crack when he can't stand the delicious weight and scents above him any longer. ]

Where's mine?

[ Be a good bread thief and share! ]

[devilstongue]

You're lucky I got two slices.

[ He picks apart another piece and holds it out to Fjord's mouth. It's still warm from the oven, so Caduceus probably made it. ]

I'm going out later today with the girls, Jessie wanted to know where I got the sweets I gave her. Saltwater taffy is apparently a favorite.

[ He's also planning to get a thing done. ]

If I get get out of bed, this pillow is so comfy...

[ Mmm, pecs. ]

[halforc]

[ He munches open-mouthed like the half-asleep heathen he is, willing to eat anything Molly gives him at such an hour. It could be seaweed and he wouldn't question it (much). ]

If you get out of this bed ...

[ His hands slide down Molly's sides to follow his curves, the swell of his ass too far away with Molly pillowing his head on Fjord's chest but the base of that tail is fair game. It gets petted along the ridges that he knows so well, fingers curling around its length in a lazy stroke. ]

M'gonna ... go out with Deuces ... shopping.

[ Probably. See if there is any Wildmother paraphernalia or the like around in the pawn shops. ]

[devilstongue]

[ It's a good thing he's not that mean (today), the bread is nice and buttery. The idea of getting out to the bed is lessenging by the minute as he's enjoying the cuddle and Fjord's hands wandering on him. When they settle on the base of his tail and starts to stoke a bit, he mumbles his approval a few inches from a green nipple.

...right, planning their day. ]

The wildbrothers, making Nicodranas flourish. Sounds nice.

[ He's so glad that Fjord has a good connection for his powers now, and someone to help him out with that. ]

[halforc]

[ Stretching out with a grunt, he relaxes and scoops up the length of that tail to collect the spade. He brings it to his lips for a thoughtful hum, getting Molly back for being a tease. ]

Spreading our wild seed wherever we go ...

[ Molly's pillow shakes with stifled laughter, quiet in the weak morning light. ]

[devilstongue]

[ Molly's tail wiggles in that grasp, stroking over the green lips while a slit of red under heavy lids watch. It makes him stretch out more, like a lazy cat trying to cover as much of the nice warm pillow as possible. It feels so good that he could just vibrate like Frumpkin.

Then Fjord says that and he can't help the laughter that follows. ]

You're terrible. I'm telling Clay you said that.